Below are the 15 most recent journal entries.

	2006.01.13  10.38 http://www.myspace.com/crazy_calico

	2005.07.16  19.04 ....... should be a long post here for my extended absence... But More like a small paragraph because Im lazy.... well.... humm... here goes fast... Camp life, war of the worlds, uncle Dale went home, Nicole and kids moved, Nikki's birth day. there has to be more than that... oooooo yea, going to see weezer tomorow at the house of blues in myrtle beach.. bye.... lol

	2005.06.16  23.23 yet another shitty say well today dident start out good to begin good..... had a whole bunch of shitty stuff that happend in the middle...... and then for a brief moment it looked like things were going to perk up.... when I caught the fish, but OOOOOOO no, things can't go right for me...... well first off Darshane kinda pissed me off in the car... well really pissed me off doing the control thing that I despise.... it really dosent concern me when she gives me rules or tells me I can't do something based on ou soing out.... but it really chaps my ass when she tries to to tell me how to live my every day life..... well the entire trip home she does not say or do anything to show any syampathy... that shouldent piss me off, because she really dident do anything to me mean other than the control freak thing.......but on this occation I got alot more pissed... because I made her upset about some stupid, I can't remember what it was, shit... well needless to say I went outside and wrote on her.. not becaue I felt bad for what I did, but because I don't like making her upset... or for that matter seeing her anything but happy. but she dosent even talk or show any remorse for anything... it not like I wanted her to feel bad for limiting my boose, but because when I'm mad she dosent seem sorry at all and it pisses me off that I do.... Mabey I should be mean agian Like I used to be.... Mean like I was to Kelly... lol, I should feel bad but I don't... girls that act like that deserve what they get.... and If darshane keeps acting like she has tonight.... which she still hasent made an effort to cuddle or make the hurt stop..... but heres the catcher... on the way back from the jasons lake house I got a ticket becaues I was mad and I was speeding.... FUCKING SUCKED!!! now I owe like 235$ to the man.... well the officer was really nice and dident search the car (2 open bottles, a bong, seeds and stems) and let me off for having to many people in the car.... plus I dident have my registration... oof, but all in all I got lucky with that.... But I caught a fish!!! be happy Hunter!!! Fucking Smile! thats what you do.... sometimes I just wanna go home.... honestly, I think In the long run I would be better off... my mom and dad love me. Kinda miss them too.... Plus I never see Jeff anymore, miss hanging out with Jeff... the only one who relates 100% to me... so stressed right now, missed sign up for summer classes, oof, then I havent got in touch with my papa to find out when I have to help him with that house on hutto, rought times... plus I've kinda had a bad outlook on things latley.... but how can I, I really don't have anyone who I love or who loves me around hardley ever.... nana, papa, nikki, joey, jess, uncle dale, aunt kim, scotty, very rarely Jeff, mom, and dad..... but I don't see most of them enough.... well honestly Im tired of typing, but I have so much more on my mind, lol had alot of time to thing here in the past two hours, not talking to anyone becaue I've been upset.... hey it might not be healthy, but get off me it how I deal with things. peace. Mood: crappy

	2005.06.08  22.42 ..........pissed man im pissed....... fjsakl;fjkl;fdsjkl;f;fs;kl;fdsa;kl;;;afjkl;a;;k............................................................................... really FUCKING PISSED! whatever right......... fucking bull shit, no way to describe how I feel, I can not stand getting fucking lied to....... and this was the worst possible lie...... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11 Mood: angry

	2005.06.08  18.21 who cares? Well what to say, had to pull a tree up monday.... the most awful thing I've ever had to do, plus I worked from 10 till 6 and I got paied only 25$.... yea it sucked.... other than that I had a good time after the whole uprooting the tree experience, went to the lake and drank... then went swimming in the lake in my boxers! fun to say the least... made me forget about the trobbles of the day.... Don't think thats how you spell it but who cares right, you know what I ment... well moms going to pick up so food for me, scotty, jessie, and darshane... and shes going to talk to aunk kim to see if I can spent the night there tonight! love spending the night at aunt kims... DDR... well not DDR, SMR!!! only my cousin joey will get that one... Mood: chipper

	2005.06.05  17.00 Nothing Important.... Well, spent the night at aunt Kim's last night.... fun fun.... got upset, but kept it inside.... lol, Im probaly going to blow up someday... but, I Hate drama, and I hate it even more when I cause the drama. enough about that shit, happy! always happy.... family seemed to be getting along just fine... well as fine as can be expected when you bring that many different people together. cant stop thinking about am I doing what I want and what will make me happy, or am I just coasting along agian? ooooo my belts here... taken? mabey? mabey I should have went to the lake today? na, that couldent have worked... Mood: awake

	2005.06.03  12.16 blee... well went to the hot tub this morning, chris came and met us up there..... little chris was no where to be found? yay, the nintendo finaly gets to come out and play.... family drama has kept me in hiding for about a wekk now.... it's not that I'm not sad, but I don't want to be sad so I avoid evenything that would cause such feelings.... plan to go to the visitation on sat. from 2 to 3 at that place in front of pharro's..... well enough sad shit, going to columbia today to chill with the chrisX2 and d-shane. well darshane wont make food so I guess I have to agian.... fun fun..... dident figure she would cook yesterday when she brought up the Idea.... but, I'm hungry so im out... Mood: apathetic

	2005.05.26  17.09 Graduation going to columbia so I can get kac-ies for jeffs graduation.... ooff! gonna be boring, but jeffs the slut-a-torian.... lol, slut.... well I have to leave like now because I'm suppose to go meet my mom in front of hollister at 5:30 and its 5:11 right now!!!! Peace!! Mood: rushed

	2005.05.24  16.00 Crazyness!!! well big fight with family, anan and mom mainly... but I put my foot down and everything should be gravy now! well chillin at darshnaes house..... I need something to drink! man today is good! well a hell of alot better than this weekend, catch yall on the flip side.. Mood: amused

	2005.05.19  12.53 what Weekbegining as if it were..... OMG, i'm so happy... well not really happy, just I havent slept for more than like 3 hours in the past 6 or so days. And last night I slept from like 11:30 or so till 12:30 this morning!! It's almost like im a new person, I HAVE ENERGY AGIAN!!! the only question is what will I do with that energy? think I'm bout to head up to lexington, think me, nikki, and darshane will be going up there...... eep, just, and I mean just found out that I have to go fishing sat. and prob wont get to go to N.C. to get my tattoo... mabey I will have to convince jason to go friday or sunday. Told Darshane how I felt sunday night, or mabey it was monday. well, things went alot better than I thought, and now I've been in a great mood for about a week now. Guess I get good luck for toilet seats. who knew x3, quiet old j.c. made me think it was a devilish duo type thing. ME and JASON, spade champs. TORE THAT game up after being 260 down! mabey i should get a tattoo on my ASS, but I still have to skeem a way UP there. still kinda feeling sick, mabey im just hungry. Dident get to go watch Star Wars last night, but going to watch it today. might have to skeem a little today, but mabey not... still hurting from the other day.... sad, so sad.... Had no one to write im my hair last night, so I went to sleep.... who am I kiddind, even if someone would have wrote im my hair I would have went to sleep. well I have to go get readdy for this fun day! peace out everyone, I love none of you, and I like less than half.....

	2005.05.16  22.22 mommy! love my mommy.... going to the bowling ally with jc and darshane. so thats it.... peace

	2005.05.16  13.06 well...... Well, Found out some things about darshane and the thing aint going to work for sure! So my opitons have ran thin..... found out D-shane had sex with some dude this weekend. Im not mad, but I will not be having sex with her agian! and thats word, had a conversation with my mom about how to break that off last night, and now I don't have to worry about it, yay. love how lucky I am, things tend to go my way most of the time :). well, britt I don't think wants to get with me because I was kinda bad, well am kinda bad.... so I guess I aint that lucky :(. man I feel like shit right now, havent got but about 15 hours of sleep in the past four days. stomach queezy, wanna say more... but I feel sick, peace. Mood: sick

	2005.05.16  04.17 yet another hazy night...... Free-z-ing, and man yet agian im drunk....... Don't know how many I've had.... prob. put it some where between 6 and 10. Have not talked to Darshane in like 3 days.... Kinda sounds crazy but I miss her alot, shes the only one who writes in my hair and back without me even having to say any thing about it :( . I hope shes not mad at me, it would crush me if that was the case. aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!! I am so lost right now, what am I suppose to do? I hate this feeling of not knowing. I mean I've started talking to britt, but she has other guys trying to get with her... and I hate com-pet-i-tive bullshit!!! mabey it's because I'm lazy.... or mabey I don't like feeling like I'm aginst someone unless toe-ta-lee nessacary (when you see dashes in a word sound it out because I don't know how to spell it). Man im weird, but i've been this way my whole life and I seem to be making it by all right, mabey it is because people think im cute for some odd reason........ I don't, I'm not saying I think I look bad, but I don't think i'm attractive at all.... I guess some girls just enjoy my strange look, and for that I am thankful. quit downing your self Hunter, and quit talking in third person, your freaking the two, mabey even one, (prob. just me, but it's o.k. it gives me something to do), people who read your sorry ass journal out. dang that was alot of caa-maas in that last sentance, try to decifer it. lol. I think now that I have this new live journal thing I write alot longer post than I did in Xanga. man o man my mind jumps from thought to thought quickly...... ADHD, well that what the docters tell me. I don't know what Im going to do now???? I havent decided totaly, I don't know If im going to keep talking to britt, or if im going to talk to other girls, or if i'm going to spark something with me and Darshane...... I don't Know????????????? Darshane gives me everything I want, britt is every thing I want (good girl, something I never have had before..... not that I want to use her for the fact that she something new.... just I HATE THE WAY I AM ON THE INSIDE RIGHT NOW! Evil, mean, cold, and I care about nothing but myself. but for some strange reason I was sad when I saw her cry?????? why??? I shouldent worry about it its not my problem, but I did and I was nice..... and it made me feel good because I was nice.......... not for me, totaly for someone eles, GAY, GAY, GAY!! the thought of being nice makes me sick....) And I did not talk to Darshane when she called last night? she wanted me to give her a ride back to the berry, but I dident talk to her so I dident know? shes prob. going to be so mad at me salvaging a frindship is going to be hard.... much less me me trying to get with her.... mabey I don't need a girl.... But I havent had a girl friend in like 3 or 4 months... and in that time I've done alot of things that I don't want to talk about because I don't like the fact that I did them..... aaaahhh!!! I have to pee so bad right now...... mabey I will just start talking to sheana agian, I mean she has gotten so hot now, and I would put money on the fact that she still likes me, plus I do still like her..... even though she cheated on me last time we dated. But my parents made that relationship difficult, but now im 20 and im the one who makes desisions in my life, so mabey it could work this time. man I got to get off this thing my heads starting to bob because i've only had like 15 hours of sleep in the past 5 days.... sleep is much needed right not, sleep and someone writing in my hair. WHERE IS DARSHANE when you need her... she prob. was saying the same thing about me the past few nights, im sorry babe. Just know I'll be there whenever you need me, ya know the number, just talk to me and you know you can break me..... well, I think im going to go make my pallet in the floor and go to sleep all lone-lee like. good bye world. good bye all, for now I hope. Mood: drunk Music: none

	2005.05.15  10.39 Strange days, Stranger nights........ WOW, look at that indent.... why did I do it? Magic! Well let me put yesterday through this morning in a nut shell, Went to coulmbia, ate at o'charlies, experinced (sp?) drama, went to The park, got shot at by an air rifle, found a random bicycle seat, met brittany poo and nikki at outback, got charged for a cup of ice, started drinking strawberry vodka and twister, heard nasty storys about guy spanking off at dam, went and met up with jason, road in the limo, picked up alot of drunk people, watched the sparks from the limo (so cool), got hit on by jasons aunt (she went for the lips!!!!), Started drinking alot more (crown and coke), things were going good out at the ga-z-bow, trip to waffle house and everything went to hell, had to deal with more drama, got a little upset but ate waffle house and everything was coasher (sp?), had random conversation with nikki about nasty things, tried to be a nice guy, worked out my head and back writing skills I prefected in japan, got a neck cramp from the most confertable head rest in the world..., got my hair wrote in (gurr!), woke everone up in jasons house looking for blanket, restrained myself in blazer...... why??? MAGIC?!?!?, watched the limo rock, tried to be a nice guy agian (but with no sucess), used my pure skill to find britt's keys, felt queezy from driving, picked my car up, went to sonic, messed with two shitty hondas, Got gas, got back to aunt kims house, dodged pillows/ other random objects, found out about sug getting his truck stole, sat down to write this post......... and thats it for now..... love ya a little..... mabey..... peace... Mood: drained Music: people being too loud in the house....

	2005.05.14  14.18 new thingy new thingy, fun fun........ thats it for now, hope you like :) you sexy mother #@$!%#$ Mood: indescribable Music: macross plus midi from my Xanga account